Hello, I have been married since 1999 to my best friend, my companion and a man I thought I could have never "landed" as they say. Throughout our marriage, there have been affairs - and even divorce at one point. But God always brought our hearts back together! We are now both 33 and my husband has decided to leave after finding out I have been talking to men online, I never intended to leave or cheat on him, I just wanted to feel worthy of someone's affection. I have repented, and want my marriage to work. Please pray for us and ask God to heal my husbands pain from what I have done to him. I take 100% of the blame. We have 4 kids, and I'd like to raise them with him and be happy again.